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ffox ([personal profile] ffox) wrote2026-01-09 01:36 pm

+ screaming to be seen

i have not had the energy to write yesterday. 
and truth be told i don't have anyone in my life to talk to about what is going on in my head. so here i am again. 
i used to be so full of life and grab on to opportunities with both hands and see my friends and laugh a lot and make plans and now i just sort of exist. 
i am begging for there to be someone in the universe that understands me on a soul deep level without me having to explain myself. i am so lonely sometimes that i can barely remember to keep breathing. i wake up crying in the night. i can't bring myself to eat. i don't want to spend my life feeling like this. 
my heart feels so heavy all the time.