+ wither i remold into gold
Feb. 20th, 2026 08:18 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ffoxstrange day today with chris being gone so early. thought i was going to fall asleep on the sofa because of how tired i was, but i opened netflix and there was a 3 part documentary about ANTM so i was seated. I used to watch it pretty obsessively, and it definitely did not help my eating disorder, but it was soooo fun. and now looking back its absolutely horrific. i feel the most sorry for shandi, and i think the producers were wrong to not say it was sexual assault. that poor girl. and tyra is a disingenuous money grubbing worm. announcing cycle 25 at the end was a diabolical move.
once that was done i sort of looked around the house and realised i had another seven hours to myself? i cleaned the bedroom, vacuumed, mopped and did four loads of laundry. and i still had too much time. i was going to walk the dog but it was pouring down, so i just sat on the sofa. i don't like being alone apparently, or at least i am not sure what to do with myself without something structured to do and i don't have a really engrossing book to while the hours away so it was a bit of a let down. never mind, next time i will be better prepared! i downloaded queen of faces yesterday as its been recommended, maybe i will start that once i finish the ToG audiobooks. funnily enough the recommended book was "every time we meet at the dairy queen your whole fucking face explodes" which like... what?
chris came home eventually absolutely sodden, he hadn't had his waterproofs with him and he was pretty miserable - however a shower, pyjamas and a steak dinner sorted that out. he said to me he realised that he really needs to be earning money, which was great as that was what i was hoping for. it will do him so much good to engage with the world again like that, and also help our budget.
unfortunately my esophagus decided not to play ball so i spent two hours trying to dislodge the first bite of steak i had. *sigh* my throat is raw now. ended up falling asleep on the sofa watching unexpected. i'm going to have to start keeping notes of what i was eating and how long it took to fix for the doctors.
currently reading: the pillars of the earth (95% done - will be glad when it's finished!! hilarious to me that names like michael armstrong and sally are medieval.)
once that was done i sort of looked around the house and realised i had another seven hours to myself? i cleaned the bedroom, vacuumed, mopped and did four loads of laundry. and i still had too much time. i was going to walk the dog but it was pouring down, so i just sat on the sofa. i don't like being alone apparently, or at least i am not sure what to do with myself without something structured to do and i don't have a really engrossing book to while the hours away so it was a bit of a let down. never mind, next time i will be better prepared! i downloaded queen of faces yesterday as its been recommended, maybe i will start that once i finish the ToG audiobooks. funnily enough the recommended book was "every time we meet at the dairy queen your whole fucking face explodes" which like... what?
chris came home eventually absolutely sodden, he hadn't had his waterproofs with him and he was pretty miserable - however a shower, pyjamas and a steak dinner sorted that out. he said to me he realised that he really needs to be earning money, which was great as that was what i was hoping for. it will do him so much good to engage with the world again like that, and also help our budget.
unfortunately my esophagus decided not to play ball so i spent two hours trying to dislodge the first bite of steak i had. *sigh* my throat is raw now. ended up falling asleep on the sofa watching unexpected. i'm going to have to start keeping notes of what i was eating and how long it took to fix for the doctors.
currently reading: the pillars of the earth (95% done - will be glad when it's finished!! hilarious to me that names like michael armstrong and sally are medieval.)
