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 wore my lucy and yak cord trousers today, have decided the reason i don't reach for them is i really don't like the colour. they are pale lilac and it just doesn't go with the rest of my wardrobe. they are incredibly comfy though! so i am going to try and dye them. i debated marbling them with darker purple and black but i think it will end up looking like a primary school project, so i am better off dying them just black. i found the joanie dress i needed on vinted and i didn't buy it. it's a size 16, i am a 10-12. so if i buy it i can get it tailored, instead of the one i have which is a size 8 and doesn't fit across the bust. it's my favourite fox pattern so i am hoping it is still there when i get paid in a weeks time. 

systems training in work today. barry who supports everton (boo) has come from civil service directly, and says its absolutely shambolic. he has been there three months and still does not have a log in. he asked us about pay and i told him what i am paid and its 2.5k more than he is, even though he has been there three years. that made me feel very proud of my negotiating skills! especially as rich has come in as a senior and is only on 2.5k more than me. i am going to make senior this year, and then earn more. i am determined!

chris and i had words over his smoking as i had to go to the shop at 7.15am for more tobacco for him and he was like "so" but its costing £200 a month? and then that makes me spend more on myself because i begrudge spending the £200 a month on him smoking and me cutting things out of my budget left and right. he was ruminating on how he could earn £50 a week to cover it, but he doesn't do anything so i don't know why he's expecting money to fall into his lap. 

i had a chat with ovo about the fact that they are reporting me as missing payments from march to october last year even though i was paying them. they applied the DMP flag to my account seven months late. they have escalated it to a specialist team and should correct it within 30 days apparently. i hope they do because its wrong and annoying. but also pleased that i said something. 

had a shower and used curl jelly on my hair but i don't like the feeling of it. it feels greasy and crunchy. so i might get rid of the rest of the curl jelly that i have and just go back to using mousse. i had to buy makeup wipes because the micellar water and cotton pad combination was not getting rid of my eye make up. i was trying to be frugal by not adding wipes to my weekly shop and it backfired because i then had to spend more in the corner shop for the same product. argh. 

i nearly finished my sewing but was running out of thread.... and after an hour of looking for it i found it in the kitchen bin surrounded by bits of moose's rope toy. i gave it a wash and wrapped it around the chair to try, and i am so annoyed by that entire escapade that i am now taking myself to bed. 

currently reading: assassin's blade

i was watching a caleb hammer video and one of the guests just said "if they cant catch you what is the point" and i have got NO idea what it is supposed to mean.

today has been a bit of a wet blanket all the way through. laura's dad brought her home last night at almost 8pm, so she had to go to bed pretty much straight away. she'd had a filling so when she woke up this morning i checked in with her, gave her some painkillers and sent her to school. i got a message about five minutes after she'd left demanding to know why i'd sent her in, and then spent all day thinking that she had rung him to moan about me, which really hurt my feelings. came home, and asked to see her phone. she'd text him to say SHE WAS FEELING BETTER. so i sent him a photo of his own text exchange with her and just said "this is why i sent her in". he was obviously poking for a reaction and i just cannot deal with the fact that we have been broken up for almost a decade and he STILL tries to manipulate any situation to get a rise out of me.

training day 2 was good - although one of the computer based courses didn't work for me, so i have to do it again tomorrow. annoyingly its one of the older training videos so they insist on it reading the text out to you and you can't skip until its finished but i read about 15x faster than the voice speaks. argh.

made chicken beer camel for dinner. laura tried to read the word bechamel off the meal plan and failed. much giggling ensued. spaghetti, white cheese sauce, chicken. simples. spent an hour with her having a laugh and a chat about things, did the washing up. i have taught chris about OHIO and he is almost getting it, but not with washing up his dinner items. i did use it to finally put away a load of laundry today though! and i have had the tumble dryer going ALL DAY but everything is still damp and i have no idea why. pulled the trap out of the machine and flooded the kitchen but there was nothing stuck in it, so that was a waste of time. 

then i got advertised to! i was influenced. A pattern I have saved on my Etsy went on sale from £5 to £1.50... and I bought it :( I didn't need it! I have loads of kits to get through. But it was a dragon asleep on a bookshelf. And now I have regrets because upon opening the pattern, it's clearly from a pattern mill (AI) and has soooo much confetti that its going to be a right pain to stitch. Gah. Absolutely my own fault, I should have zoomed in because if you look closely you can tell. Plus the thumb nails don't match. I might try and stitch it up anyway because apparently I don't hate myself enough.  


my feed is full of people decluttering. its very satisfying watching people throwing things out but i am rocked every time by just how much STUFF people have. like i have three or four large doom boxes (ikea kallax box size) and i should probably reorganise my shed and attic eaves... but thats about it? whereas these people seem to have basements and attics and garages full of stuff that they just don't need? and the closests. give me strength. the consumption is wild. 

my book club is going strong. i am posting something snarky for every chapter i am reading and very much enjoying doing so. going to stop looking at bad screens now so i can look at good screen instead (kindle) under giant blanket. i wish i had the money for the new miffy fruit blanket from the oodie. its so cute.  

currently reading: crown of midnight
currently: freezing even though the heating is at 19.5C and is bankrupting me